~hell don't know my fury~

k so like....

2007-03-27T22:49:23Z

umm live journal is way more user friendly!!!! i think im gonna need some lessons on how to go about working the whole my space thing! so maybe next week we can plan lesson? what do you think? im unsure of my schedual, but i know i have some time. maybe we can do breakfest lunch or dinner? just let me know...hope all is well. oh and remind me to start to tell you the saga of my mum....

nsaneblondeee @ 2007-03-26T15:44:00

2007-03-26T20:56:27Z

sorry bout lacking in batting skils maybe, in the summer before we move to CA you can teach me some skills .... glad your better....dylian misses uncle ducky write mo' later

ohhh goody!*!

2007-03-22T23:36:54Z

sooooooo... my lovely, i have saternight off i think???? wanna hang??? maybe early in the night? call me..

nsaneblondeee @ 2007-03-07T22:30:00

2007-03-08T03:32:40Z

going to boston tomorrow>>>wooohooo
thats all i got.
ducky im on vacation= hang out some time?

hey lovely!

2007-03-02T00:11:15Z

i know your the only one who reads this, so i thought i would leave you a love note....

so, i hope all is well with you working, school?, all those things that duckys do.... i have been busy ya know same old, same old. story of my life right? im going to school and managing to pass. its quite hard to do with no one doing your home work. also workingon my days "off". sorry i didnt call you over the holidays. they were pretty hard. my mom is still not talking to me. you know you think when you make it to adult hood having no parents would be no problem. well living in denile is fun you know.... write more later. we have the net now!!
love me

nsaneblondeee @ 2005-08-09T19:27:00

2005-08-09T23:32:07Z

FOUND!!!
my paycheck that i lost!
nearly had a heart attack!
is it true that it takes 4 cents to make a penny?

your not the onl;y one whos been f*ed with in life

2005-08-04T22:54:57Z

'lo all,
i am so f*ing tired! ive moved twice in the last week... and my animals are plotting my death: so are my friends. unfortuatly some have more patient's then others... i'm at my mums right now. will be until tomorrow.

im sorry you feel that way, my family as well as my partner have been neglected too, and the last time that we talked i wanted to talk longer but you had other obligations, and "i was doing that thing i do" whatever that is. im sorry but ive been trying to live my life, im on survival moad. sorry thats not good enoughf for you.

i'm going to the new apartment to unpack ill be there for a while.

nsaneblondeee @ 2005-07-12T10:26:00

2005-07-12T14:34:22Z

so hello to all i have been neglecting you big time sorry. life has been happening for me a bit to much in these past months. i'll try and write a little more often. leah my love are you still out there i dont have your # any more mines the same call me, and we'll have some coffee talk!

ducky i need you to call me if any one sees or talks to him tell him to call me please!!!

ducky and i are on anew level!

2005-01-16T20:28:50Z

jhust a quick note. living in saco, and loving it! miss ducky. need to see leah! how is dmb? got a new cat named myrlyn! hes a maine coon and huge, always thinks hes hungry! g2g

nsaneblondeee @ 2004-11-13T21:57:00

2004-11-14T03:13:19Z

so im have ing an awful hard time. my love of mt life is far away and i miss her so very badly...i had the most horrible of all dreams last night. ekk. anyways she comes home tomorrow night. it seems so long away. im haveing this hard time were im keeping all this stuff inside, i dont feel right saying anything to anyone because everyone seems to have bigger problems. nobody ever asks how im doing because i always have this dumb smile on my face. im not ok far from but im not telling anyone whats wrong im gonna just keep it to my self because every one else has too many problems why bring mine in to it.....

nsaneblondeee @ 2004-11-03T13:50:00

2004-11-03T18:52:21Z

p.s. i m dating usm's official drag king!!!

nsaneblondeee @ 2004-11-03T13:39:00

2004-11-03T18:49:32Z

soooooo my love and i have officially found an apartment!!!!!!!!yea!!!!!
we are cleaning it now cause it is soo very dirty! but once were done it will be home ...our home :)
im all grins . so neways got to go meet my luvvie! honey bunches a oats!!!

its a bloddy mess!

2004-10-24T20:33:23Z

so my computer is all messed up and i cant type numbers nor erase anything so im trying to be careful while typing red soxs rule!!! so um the rest of thr trip was good but glad shes gone next week end were moving my grammie down to saco!!! my love is going to help us speaking of coppertone miss ddog and i have made the exsecutive decision to move out asap big grins running across my face!!!!!!!!!!!

nsaneblondeee @ 2004-10-11T17:53:00

2004-10-12T01:07:42Z

hey there to all...
so i spent all week-end with my family. six of us all together, all female! it was intersting to say the least. but my love was there to save me and hold me through the sickness (i was very ill the entri weekend) we rented amini van and sang songs. i still have "he goes down down to the burning ring of fire", " she goes down down to the...." thats what you get with a car full of lesbos. we stayed at areally nice resort and in this room that was like mini apartment. i just realized what time it was and i need to go pack cause im stayen up in west brooke tonight!!!
***lots of cuddles!!!!
good sleeping to all!!!

i feel better...

2004-09-30T15:28:25Z

i think i just needed to get all of that out of my system. i slept great least nigfht. so i was trying to find my fav. pants this morniing, and i decieded to take the huge pile of close of the chair and actually found them!!! but there was a spider in them. it was quite large the size of a dim e i freaked but got out the spider poison and conquered him!!! noiw i dont daer touch the cloths on my bed!!!! got to go to work!!!

please, bare with my momentary insanity.

2004-09-30T00:19:12Z

i feel weird tonight.well not just tonight, for awhile. kind of depressed. ive cride more in the last two

weeks then i have in the last two years. i always tend to abuse myself letting everything build up (i.e.my

surroundings, my mom, my dad, my health, money, my car,and so on) the tears dont feel normal. they wilt up

inside my eyes and when they finally come out it feels like an explosinon. i cant stop them either, they

just flow down my cheeks. luckaly i have a tolerent girlfriend who puts up with a few tears over chipmunks

squirrls and cute red foxes. this is just so out of the ordinary for me. i do have this awful tendency to

act like mary fucking sunshine, smile at everything, laugh with everybody, even though i just want to

frown and compleatly isolate myself. inside i feel so diffrent but i dont want to share it with anybody,

its scary in my head, mythoughts are so loud and they overlap each other. i know how to fix all this, i

just need to talk about it, write it down, just dont keep it in, but i do anyway. its just old habbit. i m

stubburn and compleatly stuck in myways. its slightly sick. ill just keep smiling and laughing and

potraying the ditz everyone relly thinks i am. god forbid a blonde be intelligent. i may have sucked in

school and slept through every class i everhad, but i do try and educate my self in the things i like, not

spelling, grammer or f~ing math. well lovely night to all....

love you glitter face*

nsaneblondeee @ 2004-09-28T23:39:00

2004-09-29T03:55:09Z

so i agve in to white choc. macidamia(SP?) nut cookie. i was hungry and it was close. but it was only half

of it. so there! just trying to justify that to myself. so i strted training at cold stone. my boss seems

super cool. i havent met everybody yet so well see who the bad apples are! so in the next few months i

get to pay off a couple more carpayments and save up for a deposit for THE apartment, you my 1st

apartment, with my gal!!! oh hurry just thought gives me giggles and little flutterbys!!!!! well im gonna

attempt to sleep, but im so awake so i dont kn ow how im gonna make it but whatever!

are you on your period??? yes....oh fuck!!!!

2004-09-28T01:07:26Z

i have to pee really bad. so ill make it quick. opened a bank account with my love on friday!!! that was an awsome feeling, and im so excited to have her in my life! on saterday i went to breakfest with d-dogg(he he). then that evening i hung with ducky!!! i was so happy to see him and i talked his ear off, and he kept his attention! after destiny got out of work we all had a little fun together. (i.e. rum was my friend, and they enjoyed a lovey smoke) today i worked. ohh i forgot ducky and i went for ice cream and i got a new job. my good luck charm! now i get to work two jobs woohoo. actually its really good because it means i get to move out sooner with miss destiny! well, all for now. sleep well

nsaneblondeee @ 2004-09-23T21:23:00

2004-09-24T01:59:15Z

so i wont know the results of my heart monitor until next week... fun stuff. i am so exsited for saterday i get to hang with ducky!!! and then sunday i get to hang with emo!!! but the high light of my weekend i get to go apple pickig wiht my love!!! yea!!!!!!!well more tomorrow....

she gets baked, and she bake the bread...ha!

2004-09-21T00:48:06Z

um i forgot and i dont know how i possibly could....i have so much appreshation twoards my girlfriend she has been there for me so much in the past week, as a matter of fact shes always there for me. thank you glitter face!

yeah so i have to figure out how to sleep with this heart monitor thing on. its itchey and uncomfrterble. and i have to keep a journal of everything i do! pee, sleep, make-luv, drive, eat, and drink.

britney spears got married last night...good for her!

2004-09-19T20:10:11Z

my week has been eventful. monday and tuesday were slow, then wedsday night i passed out for no reason then mom brought me to the hospital. I hit my head pretty hard. so at 18 i have had my first EKG, the i had abunch of other tests including a finger pric for gloucos, a big scary needal to test my blood for a bunch of things. any who they all came up negitive for everything, so tomorrow i have to walk aroud for a day with a heart monitor, and if thats negitive then i get to have a cat scan. did i mention im closter phobic? so then on friday or saterday??? ducky and micheal tried to help me with my computer but it kept booting me off the net so finally i just walked away, cause it was going to go out the window. but i did forget to thank them. now i feel bad cause ther attempt was appreshiated, wish i had more patients. now on to sun day. i have cramps and i think im gonna start soon. just thought you all should know. well im gonna go get some deoderrant on and go out into the world!

moving

2004-09-11T19:56:53Z

so all my friends are moving. ones gone to boston, one is going to

france....sad but leahs moving closer againg so i dont have to go all

the way to ptld to see her!!! yea! looking for asecond job to get an

apartment. want to sell my car its a death trap..i dont have very good

sales skills...obviiously. i just want some one to take over the

payments!!! some one who likes to fix cars....know anybody??? todays

been good my day off paid bills, saw my love, mailed out my violatin

money to boston, figured out how to make a cool callender on my

computer, yeah ive had this thing for a year and just figured that

out....little slow onthe uptake. finally went to collets cup this am...it

was so good they have the best chi. i got over my stubbuness and

loyaty to starbucks. well off to shower i stink and cut my toe nails leah

says there to long thought you should all know!

wait!!!!!!

2004-09-08T23:27:19Z

i do have one thing to say....good luck to ducky and his 1st day a school tomo!!!!

(i think its tomo?)

nsaneblondeee @ 2004-09-08T19:11:00

2004-09-08T23:14:03Z

yup so not to much to say....just thought id write.....cause i could....

i think we need to dock a boat or drop an ancor.....

2004-09-04T19:59:54Z

went to sabbaday falls yesterday it was beautiful...laid on a rock and basked in the sun with my love.speaking of sorry bout the whole Clarks, L.L. Bean incident ill try and regulate myself next time. i had a lovey time though.
work tomorrow:( and have aton of bills coming up)!!
bye 4 now

*~hell don't know my fury~*